Lost my job due to work permit refusal...

I have been missing in action again for the past couple of months. There is nothing much to update then. If I were to summarise, it is basically working, drinking in the pub, watching tele at home, travelling back to Nottingham and etc. Nothing interesting happened.

In fact, I felt like I am drawing myself further away from God sometimes. I have not been experiencing his Love like I used to when I was back in Nottingham. I found a church in Barrow but I never get to share as much as I desired to. I believe this is due to cultural differences between Chinese and the locals here in the UK.

Just recently, I am back to Nottingham once again for a very very long time. My work permit was application was refused by Border Agency. It came as a shock to me and my company. I was baffled by this decision. As I will be deemed illegal if I continue working for Oxleys, I had no choice but to stop working immediately. There were still projects under my supervision but all these were put on hold.

Sometimes, God place obstacles in our ways to let us grow, I believe this blockage is there for a reason. He has a mighty plan for me. I know He leads me to a fulfilling life.

While waiting for the result on my appeal, I am taking time out to visit the Lake District. Windermere is the largest lake in the UK. It gave me ample time to think about my future, my destiny and His plans for me. Eventhough I lost this job, somehow, deep inside me a feeling of relief and joy flourishes. I long for the love of God who never cease to seek me. I felt this as soon as I get back to Nottingham City Fellowship. I promise myself to take this time for service to the church and the fellowship. Here are some pics I took during the visit.

Then there was this shop selling bird food. I really wanted to feed them and wonder how it feels like. So I bought the foods and started feeding. Alas!! The birds came flying towards me like they I am their saviour or something. My hand was a little sore after that.

I miss all my mates in Malaysia. To all of you in Malaysia, I will be back in May..let's go yam char. Mari kita pergi mamak..k..?

Click here for my album on Lake district on FB

Mountain Biking in Ambleside (Lake District)

Thank God that the weather is wonderful today. Dry with just a little mist hanging around highlands. Me and my colleague Ernesto decided to make full us of the day and do something healthy. So, we have decided to explore the Lake by mountain bikes.

Here is my rented bike. It has front and back disc brake. Nice bike for 15 pounds half a day rent. It has also front suspension. Real nice bike, only minor flaws when the chain ran off the spokes twice.

Some of the scenic routes we took today. It was nice and quiet, as you can probably notice in the picture, dead leaves create brownish patch on the side of our path, it is a sign of autumn. Temperature was around 13 to 14 degree C.

I even brought my Sat Nav there, however only after 15 mins of ride when I started to make use of it. Only to find out we are going the opposite direction. So, we had to go back and start again. : (

This is me trying to ride as quickly as I can dashing through the rough terrain downhill.


To be honest, I can barely stand afterwards, it is a full 3 hours of workout up and down the little hills. However, at least we got back in one piece which I need to thank God for. I am still worrying whether I can walk to work tomorrow. :P

Oh you might have thought that I was rushing to the toilet but didn't make it in time. Wrong! The paths were wet and muddy, this is what 3 hours do to me. I wonder what 6 hours will do. Ok then, till my next update. God bless you all.

Loneliness in Barrow

I did some reading of my own blog earlier, looking at past pages of my journal entry since last year. Its been a year and a month now in UK. I guess I really enjoy myself here, I thank 神 (GOD) for providing and blessing me all this while. Looking back, I lost someone I truly love. After 3 years of courtship, I never thought a relationship can end so quickly. It was last year when this happened. Long time ago but I can't help thinking about it sometimes, especially when I look back at my previous entry in this blog. So much happy moments not to forget. However, I must say the feeling is no longer there now, although it hurts so much then. I remember nights when I woke up feeling all sad and down. Ashamed of myself as tears flow but yet I can't show this emotion to her as I am not letting my guards down. I can't show her how I feel inside, not letting her know that I still have feeling for her. We broke up for some reason...reasons which I prefer not to reveal. No one is to be blame for this. The main thing is this broke up taught me something...

It was during these time, I was comforted by 祂 (His)words. God really work in miraculous ways, He showed me the way when I was down and depressed. He gave me wonderful brothers and sisters who reflected His love. I felt so much at home when I joined City Fellowship. Eventhough majority of it's members are students, I can't help but feel so much at home. It is a place where I felt free, not having to disguise myself and act cool. I can even show my weaknesses without fear of embarassment. I am myself.

I also thank God for my sister Karen who has always been supportive and ready to lend her ears when I need someone to talk to. I never get to share this deep hurtful feeling then with any one else...my sister is the one who was with me, standing by my side as I pray for the feeling to die off...I will never forget what God has provided when I need it most. He is GREAT and MIGHTY. Let us be faithful and follow his ways...as he guide us in our daily life, never stop reading his Words in the bible! I hope this sharing (which I never share before in public) helps people who are lonely and depressed to turn back to God and let Him guide us. "I was once lost, but am found"